Me,trains and guns

 When you're held by force in a building, guys in uniforms, with guns, guarding the door and not letting anyone out, what is this called?From what I've heard  this is a typical scenario for what you can call a hostage situation.

 But let's start with the beginning.Actually let's start with the trigger.I mean, the thing that reminded me of that experience.If you though I was joking, you were wrong what I'm telling you is 100% real and it happened to me.

I ended up on a site talking about the actress Maria Dinulescu.From there i went to a site with a movie in wich she was starring.California Dreamin'.You may have heard of it.Nice movie.So, I saw the beginning of the movie, the train with the american soldiers, guns and so on.And that's what reminded me of something I experienced in the past.

It wasn't long ago.A little more then one year ago, I think it was in april.I was traveling by train.Me and a french teacher.We were going to Moldova to a literary colloquium about the writer Mircea Eliade.I had a bad feeling from the start, everytime I went to Moldova something went wrong.But I would've never imagined that something like that was going to happen to me.

It was all good in the beginning.We spent some time in Bucharest, walking for the first time with the subway, and then, around 7 o'clock in the evening we saw our train and got in.We made our "beds" and tried to sleep.But something was obviously wrong.It was to much noise,agitation on the hallway.Then, before we reached the border between Moldova and Romania the train stopped.They started to check our IDs.Usually stuff.Just that usually only 2 people are doing that.Now, they were may.And they were wearing different uniforms.They stared in a strange way at me.Maybe because in my passport i was blonde, but now i was a brunette.Maybe at 2 o'clock in the middle of the night I didn't look as inocent as usually,maybe they've mistaken my sleepy, disturbed face with a face that hides something.I was really annoyed.We were 4 in the same compartment but thay were paying more attention to me.As if I was a suspect.I was angry thinking I can be mistaken as a bad girl.

Anyway...after they checked our IDs for severel times, our bags, they told us we need to step out of the train.They didn't forced everyone to go out of the train.Just my grup and 2 more grups.The train left.The train we were suppoed to be in, in our wat to Moldova.We were somewhere...it looked like in the middle of nowhere.It was just something like a train station there.They forced us to get inside that train station.They didn't answer to any of our questions.We had no idea what happened, what was wrong, why were they keeping us there.Some of us, those you were smokers wanted to go out, just near the door to smoke.But there were armed guys at the door and they didn't allow anyone to go outside.Tell me, isn't that what it's called a hostage situation?But no one dared to say that word.They were all afraid.Maybe some in shock.Me?Well, it's strange but...I wasn't afraid, I was quite amused by the situation.It amused me to see how scared were others.It wasn't like anything worst then that was possible to happen.They couldn't torture us or keep us there for days.(later I found out that others were tortured, even teenagers)

 We were kept there for many hours,If I do remember well, it was something like 6-7 hours.The worst thing wasn't  the lack of food, water, that we had no place to sit down, but the fact that it was freezing  there.That was a real torture.Then, just like that,without any explanation they commaned us to get in a train to Iasi, and  from there straight home.One of the groups didn't want to leave, but they were somehow warned that they have no choice.Those big guns can be very convincing for civilians.Some of those men in uniforms got in the train with us.They were standing at the doors to make sure no one is able to get out.Outside, we could also see many other armed guys watching over.

Once we were in Iasi, we went straight to the police and gave some statements complaining about what happened.Then the local television came and we were taken interviews.And then we went home...just like that, as if nothing happened.

Later we found one a possible reason for the things that happened.Our arrival there was just before the election.And there were rumors about a group of rebels planning to disturb the election.Protesting.And ...well, we were mistaken  as being part of that group.Because they were supposed to be young, intellectual, and from Romania.If I think about it, they had reasons to suspect us, especially me.I was going to be a part of a cultural manifestation.I had an essey with the title "The hidden book of Mircea Eliade" wich could've been a coded massage.Plus...we all know it very well those rumors about Mircea Eliade, his connection with the legionnaire movement.So me, going thare, with something written about someone like him who wasn't seen with  good eyes...it was kind of suspicious....we/me looked like the perfect political agitator.

 Back in Romania I sworn I'll never go back to Moldova, never again.!




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I see a bright future for us

You know I wrote these days about natural beauty.Well, my mom bought me a magazine and guess what I saw there?A few guys joining the campaign started by Nivea, a campain promoting natural beauty.It's a great thing to see that men care about women that much, that men actually prefer us with no make-up.Let's face it girls, most of us actually use all those chemicals (called make-up) for guys...because we want to be perfect like those girls from the commercials

.Guess what?Guys don't even want a perfect girl.Flaws actually make you unique, they can even be cute sometimes.Belive me, I'm talking from experience....it's not a little part of your body that matters, the important thing is the general image.So what if you have a big nose?maybe you have big boobs as well and that's a plus for you....what if your boobs are too small?maybe your face is so cute that guys don't even care about anything else.Here are 2 links if you wanna read what  Bobby Voicu,Adrian Ciubotaru and Dragos Bucurenci say about natural beauty

http://www.bobbyvoicu.ro/manifest-pentru-frumusetea-aproape-naturala.html

http://bucurenci.ro/2010/03/manifest-pentru-frumusetea-naturala/ 

http://www.adrianciubotaru.ro/manifest-pentru-frumuse%C8%9Bea-naturala/


Besides that...I'm sure everyone knows about the scandals with anorexic girls...designers, tv and all showing us all those skinny girls and saying that's how a girl should look like ,did a lot of harm, put many young girls into hospitals because of starving.....But if you know the latest knews...people are changing these standards, designers forbid anorexic girls from modelling, in magazines you can see know many girls with curves...

The world is actually changing in a better way...

Mybe you'll say: "No, you're wrong! what about wars, natural disasters?what about 2012? "

Let's start with the beginning:11 september attak , Irak, Chile, Haiti, economic crisis, unemployment, diseases...yes, all of these are bad things.But I'm hopeful and I'm very sure that all this pain is not in vain.Like I always say from a "thiny" bad thing it comes out a huge good thing.We needed the worst, so that we learn how to get the best.All these events make people opend their eyes, open their hearths, help each other, understand better our needs...

You can say what you want but I already see the change, I feel it in my bones, in  the air I breathe
I have no more doubts
I used to think there's no future for us, that we are all doomed.But NOOOO!
I see HOPE
I see a bright future

And the year 2012 when it's supposed to be the end of the world...well, we are scared but why don't we realise the "the end of the worls" has so many meanings....

Let me give you an example: when your pain(when you're wounded) ends (because you heal) is that a bad thing?Would you like to stop the healing because you're afraid of the word"end"?

When you're in a bad relationship that causes you a lot of pain/trouble(maybe a husband who beats you) and you decide to end it, is that a bad thing?just because it's an end?and after that end you're going to be happy with someone else, is that still a bad thing?

Every end is nothing else but a new begining.....I don't see an end as bad thing, as something I should be afraid of....Hell no, I am actually grateful  for any "end", I'm happy when something end, even if a good thing comes to an end, because I know there's a better thing waiting for me just around the corner...An end means you get a second/thirth./fourth...chance..it means you can start a new life, it's your rebirth...

So..No! The year2012 is not what you think...we ain't gonna die..but it will die a huge piece of our darkness, and that hole that remains there,we are going to fill it with more light...more love...

2012 it will be "the end" of a dark age...and the birth of a  "golden age"

And the change it will be made inside  of each human being.

We are smart, we are strong, we are good, so we won't fail...we can turn this world into a better one 
AND WE WILL.

P.S.

You might say movies are a crappy unreal thing....but there's some truth between the lines.I just saw yesterday a scene where an archangel,Gabriel told his brother Lucifer that he's not on Lucifer's side, neither on the other angels's side.He's with the humans.for the reason that  humans are better then angels, because they try to change, they try to be better.

I'm not saying now that we really are better then angels.I haven't seen one yet face to face so that I could make a comparison.But I know how much we try to change, how hard it is for us to fight with our dark sides, and still, we never give up.And every time we fail, we sin, we feel sorry about that.And maybe that's why God loves us, because we always try to please him, or even if we are not such great belivers in the religious stuff, we stilll try to be good.


Have faith!



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Earth's future is in our hands.What's it gonna be?

Did you knew today was the Earth Day?
And if you knew, did you do anyhting about  it?
You might think it's hard to do anything, you might say it doesn't matter what you do, because you can't save the world, stop the pollution and so on, just by yourself...
Well, you should know you're totaly  wrong about that.A small thing that you do, insignificant at first view, can help a lot "saving the world"  and reducing thousands of pounds of greenhouse gas emission.
Trust me it's not hard at all
There are many things you can do, but let me tell you what I do for the enviroment:

1.Replacing my incandescent light bulb with a compact fluorescent light bulb...that's something anyone can  do..

 2.Switch to Reusable Shopping Bags...I've got a greate idea about that..I think I might start  making a few bags ,nice ones, and give them to friends and family so they  I can help them help Earth.

3.Use less heat(when i sleep at night  and when I'm away).Me and my  mom sometimes argued about that, because my room is sometimes very cold, and she says I might get sick....but It's my choice...If I can  turn off the heat for a few hours every day why not?If the world is not going to change so fast that I will be still alive that day...why not make it a better place for my kids.... and grandchildren

4.Eat less meat and more veggies.It might sound strange but this really helps the enviroment.I'll spare you of the details because that's not so important.What  matters is what you actually do about it.I almost never eat meat.And it's not a matter of religion, it's not like I have an allergie or anything else.It's just a matter of choice.

5.Use less hot water.I actually hate hot water.Lately....and not only that using warm water or cold water -instead of hot water- is helpful for the enviroment, but also it's good for you skin/health(blood circultation)

6.Use the "OFF" switch button...
I used to leave my laptop on, all the time, day and night, even if  I wasn't going to use it....but now I don't ...I usually turn it on just when I have something to do,usually in the night.
More then that, I used to let my TV on all the time, even if i was almost never watching....Now I rarely turn it on.

7.Don't let the water running while you brush your teeth.I don't

 8.Instead of watching  TV and doing things that consume energy , spend time reading, writing, drawing, telling stories....I read a lot, draw , and sew(by hand)

9.I do my laundry by hand...and I didn't even knew that helps saving the Earth...I don't even know why I do it, I think it's just a nice feeling when you wash your clothes with your own hands

 10.Move to the country.
 .I did it and it's awsome.It's so nice and quiet, no more traffic noise, drunk people yelling outside...fresh air...trees,hills,woods....I always prefered living at the country in a house and now my wish came true

  11.Collect rainwater for gardening use.My mom does that a lot

 12.It's funny , i found out that even stop using telephones is good for the enviroment....the reason why it's funny is that i actually hate phones, i don't use them for the pleasure of chatting, only when I realy have to, with my family

13.GET RID OF THE BED.Many leading chiropractors say that sleeping on the floor, with no mattress or cushion, is the best way to sleep.
Where I used to live in the city I didn't realy had a bed, just a mattress and I was sleeping better,Now that I'm using a bed I kind of have trouble sleeping so I'm seriously thinking about  finding a way to get rid of my bed.

14.Limit or eliminate your use of "disposable" items. I  do it.And it's a great feeling when you know eliminate disposable things

A few more things you can do:

I'm single but if you have a mate you can

1 SHARE YOUR SHOWERS

 I mean seriously, what's better then a shower with your girl/man for the sake of the Earth?

.2.Never throw spent batteries in the trash. They contain mercury, a hazardous substance that will leak into groundwater or be burned and released into the air. Don't go there. Either switch to rechargeable batteries or collect used batteries in a shoebox out in the garage, clearly marked. Then take them to a recycling facility once or twice a year. 

3.Styrofoam Lasts a Really, Really, REALLY long time - Try 500 years. Or more. Think about millions of burger boxes, packing peanuts, and take-out containers, sitting in landfills, not biodegrading. Then buy eggs in cardboard, rather than styrofoam, containers.

Here's a link to a place where you can find more tips about what you can do for our Mother Earth
http://www.context.org/ICLIB/IC22/Guide.htm



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