...If I had one wish ( not Ray Jay,this is my version)

Damn baby...
Just don't understand how i could do that to you,to us...
I told you i gave you my heart
I gave you my soul
Gave you...
But these were only words...
Even if i was the one who said i love you first
It was about 3 years ago, can't act like i don 't know
see i always knew it was something more
then pickin' a name,
playin' a game....

Now i think i need a bottle with a genie in it...
so this shuld be a wish list,
but i don't need a lot of wishes, i just need one...

if i had one wish
you'd be my boo,
promise to love you,
promise to trust you,
never lie again
that i don't want you...

If I had one wish that would be you...


Damn...i can't even find my words to say how i feel...
you think it's hard when you break up 'cause she/he doesn't love you anymore or cheated on you...No,excuse me, but that ain't hard.Let me tell you what's hard.

This is hard: when you love him, he loves you,when every little thing of your relationship is perfect, like living a fairytale...but...it comes a big BUT between you and him like it wasn't enough that no one agrees that i'm with him, i become so messed up, inside and outside as well, so broken i can't keep my pices together...i'm so fucked up that i can't be with him...

how can i tell him that, how can i make him understand, when no one can...i wish i could scream: "damn boy, can't you see i'm crazy, i'm fucked up, i'm a mess....i fuckin' love you so much that it hurts me doing this, but i have no choice.....i must get better for me, for us in case there will be anything left of us that day..."

So, like i said, that's the hardest choice i've ever made...giving up the one i really love...because that's what must be done, because that's the only way i can keep living.I must get rid of all my demons before living in heaven...

.. i wish you could understand this baby, i'm doin' it for us, 'cause you deserve the best of me, not the fucked up me...

If I had one wish...that would be you...me...US...

Love ya, ...no matter what...




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